Description: He meant the world to me and forever he will yet the drugs got the best of us and now we have nothing and we can never have anything together because drugs will always be apart of us
My Love -------------------------------------------
Things are never as they seem
My heart will forever ach for your presences
However my mind knows better
I will never allow myself to go back
Go back I say
To those drug invested nights
To those pits of my living hell
Depression was only the tip of the iceberg
Suicidal thoughts produced by the sexual abuse I experienced as a child
From the ongoing drug addiction
Yet I crawled my way out...
Alone more than ever now
Depressed beyond belief
For I no longer have those drugs I once leaned on
And of course I no longer have you....
Which by the way, you meant more to me than any high I felt
You were my world for I allowed you into mine!
I took the key to that old rusted lock, unlocked my heart for you
Each and every day I think you ... of "us"
Nevertheless my mind stops me from going any further
this is very intelligent...the missing, the what if thought, the admittance that he was the speaker's world...
yet that was a dangerous world, a bad world in the end...and i had to get out, get away...
i take thoughts of you with me...but will never go back there...
i am a new person...and right now i am my own world...to get better i need just me and me alone.
read several of your pieces. and you really let it out...this kind of writing can help so many...
so many others who have been there...may think twice about going back...where we have been helps make us what we are today...but for many of us, the best thing is to stay where we are now...and not go back.
this is just.. painful...
drugs sexual abuse and somehow love.. they just dont go with each other
but somehow i understand..
because they say love is blind.. and not only to what one can see but love is also blind to actions.