a list of demands -------------------------------------------
to hold your hand
to tell you about my day and how awful work was and what a control freak my boss is and how awesome my co-workers are and how i dont really want to go back tomorrow but we both know i will
to cook us teemateem wot from scratch despite my western world packet opening comforts
to frustratedly try and answer your amharic questionings knowing i know what i want to say but cannot make my brain formulate a response
to wake up beside you knowing i am home
this is my list of demands
which doesnt feel like much to ask
i have given you my heart
but long to show you so, once more.
This is comforting and certainly relatable. Many of our desires in a relationship sound very simplistic when described, but it's the dramatic effect of what's felt behind the vocalized expression that is truly something profound.
Simple things can mean so much, can't they? & sometimes the plainest symbols are the strongest, like doves equating peace, hand holding equating love.
"to cook us teemateem wot from scratch despite my western world packet opening comforts"
That part especially made me smile, because it shows such trying. Not labored work, but that effort that a relationships can be, sort of opening yourself up to someone & who they are, what they are. To read it at a glance, it's describing a simple act, but there's so much more to it.
My best friend decided that "home" is the most beautiful word in the english language. It took him years to decide that, but by then he had to redefine the word. "Home" became the word for the way his lover & the way he made him feel, & I have never witnessed such complete love as theirs.
So yes, this is good. It feels right, like your frustrations & wanting are right. Sometimes we focus on the wrong stuff. & I hope that you get to show him more soon & that the showing of more is endless. :)