Yeah this is just some random thoughts as I listen to music and think on my future...
I feel like if I hold it all in, it'll all just pile up and blow up eventually, right?
Anyways. Yeah. This coffee shop deal is going through... FINALLY! I'll be a part of a bigger picture now. So, I need to focus on this with all my mind! I already have all the training... It's the dedication throughout the next six months that are going to be... AH FUCK IT! I want this! >:D I've been working there since January. As a "volunteer". But now I'll be making a small income from this.
Now. In this moment. I am free of past fears and doubts. I have a new life. In Senneterre, (hometown) there was nothing for me. My whole life was up in smoke. I was stuck in a rut. But when I did move, I moved FAR away. I was lucky to have met Pierre. He's the one who basically saved me. If I hadn't decided to hitchhike across Canada with him, who knows where I'd be by now. I was planning on offing myself... But I had this feeling that, I had NOTHING to lose by going with Pierre.
So here I am. 9 months later. Drugs are a thing of the past. I have a place of my own. A job. A real sense of Freedom. All thanks to Pierre.
So, now that I'm living the life I always wanted, I will work hard at keeping it.
At first, I was so sure that I wouldn't amount to much. A result of listening to my brother for so long. But I finally value myself. I matter. I have to keep repeating that to myself to believe it.
So yeah. Have a great day. To whoever reads this...
You Matter Too...