I am fighting to make it far
Unlike what you did
Working too many hours
To prove you wrong
Taking these college classes
To be less like you
My feet ach
My back pulsates
, sending pain down my spine
Due to the night I decided my life needed to end
Ultimately I pulled the trigger
Now all that remains there is thick scar tissue that surrounds my fragile fractured spine
Nevertheless I go on pushing through my pain
Ignoring the memories
Pretending my pain is only a figment of my imagination
My day is unwinding
I wonder what pain you live with
What kind of memories haunts you?
Or do I haunt you at all?
I live with unspeakable pain
Pain you, Mother have caused me
You left me â€¦ you walked away from me in my time of need
Why could you not hear my cries?
What do I did I do to make you hate me?
Why can you not love me?