There once was a day, I didnt looked before I lept,
Once I wasnt cautious in all I did.
Before long though I just let life take hold,
Never thought I was wrong.
If I was lead to love, well maybe I was happy,
Till he always left me crying in the road.
I never thought to question it all.
It never mattered how many times,
I made the same mistake.
This had been one long road,
A journey of pain and sorrow
Too many tears to count,
All the times I just wanted it to end.
I came to a split in my road,
Didnt know what to choose,
Do I stay on the path Ive been on?
Or should I go the path unknown?
Ive been so torn with what to do,
I knew if I went with the familiar I would break,
But I just couldnt see ahead the new.
It didnt take long though for me to know,
After running into one too many walls,
I started to go into the unknown.
One step at a time I left all I knew,
Or thought I knew about myself,
I set out to once and for all change my life
Its different this time, this is for me.
I want to be that happy girl again,
The one who jumped before she thought,
Ran carelessly through the rain laughing.
Genuinely happy with who she was,
These past few years, I dont even know
Who is in the mirror staring back at me?
Just an empty shell of a girl whos cried
For all she has lost, for all she had hoped.
All I see is just the body of who I was,
Not the soul of myself, and that’s what Im after.
I will go down whatever roads it takes to find my spirit again