I wish for the day I wake up
as the child I once was
Re-living the feelings of love
Returning to the home I hated yet loved all at once
Longing for nothing more than to be wanted
To be loved
As I once was
However now I live a shallow worthless life
Condemed by my demons and fears
Drawn in by the darkness
Living a life of nothingness
I am battling with my fears each day
I fight till the death and thus far I've won
Nevertheless, I can only be lucky for so long
You have given me burdens I wish no one to ever have
I live with rage only I, myself will ever understand!
I simply wish for the day I can wake up...
As the child I once was...
Abused and broken... YES
Loved and wanted... YES... this is all I long for
I hope you dont see your life as 'worthless'. Knowing you like I do I can say you are a.very strong woman. And hard working full time, while getting A's in college. Your writing is a great talent you have also.