To me this could be read in two different ways, although one of the two can lend itself to a few more complications. At the heart of the piece is a precious relationship, something two intimate mates share or a parent and a child. In the latter case, I suppose the child could be unborn -- but he could also be alive it works either way really. In all of the above case, there is an implied abuse from one end (it could be the mother, or the father, the wife/girlfriend or the husband/boyfriend). The rest is history, as they'd say.
I actually have a huge amount of gripes with this poem but they're nonsense to somebody who doesn't really care (as most generally don't). For example, the use of God in this poem seems almost superfluous -- it darn well isn't essential and makes the third stanza seem outright like filler. I also don't like the verb tense change in the fourth stanza, as a matter of continuity (you see). I also do not like that the whole crux of this poem is your emphatic "that" which refers to statistics. This is a reduction of human character to a gross mathematical generalization, and it seems to take away from the bloodied hands in that the statistics are what break your heart, not the actual act itself. I realize that a lot of poetry is the product of cathartic exorcisms but -- well never you mind.
This isn't to say you're a bad writer, just that this poem could be refined. You do have my full backing in that regard.
The underlying sense that God does not forgive the transgressor suggests (to me at least) that karma is barreling in full bore on the situation and will right the universe in one way or another. I find it interesting that you forgive but that God cannot (particularly when most religious circles claim the opposite), so I'm guessing (and I emphasize guessing) that some part of you is pre-occupied with being the avenging angel and saving God all the trouble of a slow, maybe even unsatisfying, judgement. Then again, this post is all about choices: to make restitution, to forgive, to forbear, to punish, to forget. In any case, the tone of this write comes from a plethora of directions and emotions that are more real then the words on the screen. This must be fresh on your mind because it seems unresolved.
Nice poem but the context is a bit obscure. You have recently forgiven someone who had hurt you intensely and perhaps did some irrevokable damage too. The first stanza also indicates that the whole thing happened due to some pressing compulsion.
Or this compulsion can be only a smokescreen for doing something injurious, Sometimes a person's character is tested only in tough times and if someone caves in at a crucial juncture, it may mean, he/she never had the strength beneath the facade of hypocrisy.