Description: I wish he knew.. i wish he could understand even if he only understood a little bit of this pain i bare of the life i once led... i just need someone and i feel so alone right now
Days of My Life -------------------------------------------
I wish you knew of the pain I constantly am battling
Or the depression I struggle to hide
Can you see the tears I hold back when in your presence?
Do you notice the feelings that are of rage from deep within yet I do my best to mask?
Could you imagine a day where you hide your true feelings of darkness, of misery, of sadness?
Would you have the strength to take each day and find the correct mask fitting for that day?
Do you know the feelings of detaching yourself?
The hatred I feel deep within my soul?
A cold bitter place unknown to most, yet I am very familiar with.
My eyes bloodshot and sore from a long 3 days of intense college classes
my nights being spent working my 3rd shift job
little know my secrets or the scars I bear or how I have come to obtain them?
But I DO
I feel the constant physical and emotional pain
Day in and day out..
I pretend .. and I'll go on pretending..
Nevertheless I wonder when I will crack under all the pressure...
Those that have had to endure unusual pain and suffering or worry are given a very special gift; they invariably develop greater empathy, depth of character, and wisdom, which the world sees or senses, and their fate and fortunes are invariably improved immensely because of it....