Just Hate The Game -------------------------------------------
If lying was a game I’d be the winner every time
And if love was a disease I’d say I was immune.
I never let those feelings that take up the free spaces
Deep in mind get to me.
They tell me that they love me and I smile politely,
Sometimes I even say it back.
There are times when I can even see the emotion
Swelling behind their eyes as the moment is captured
Forever in a blinding ray of light that stays in my memory
For far too long.
All of them are soft and warm and make me feel good.
They smile at me and try to keep me in their possession,
But none of them succeed. I wish I could say that it hurt
Me to see them broken when I was done with them,
But it would be a lie to say that I’ve ever felt anything.
I love the way that they love me with the desperation
That encompasses their every motion and I love to abuse
Those emotions that they let show so easily.
I drink it in like a vampire sucking blood to stay alive
And I only have another night to get some more or
I might just wither away when the light shines on me.
I love to watch when I touch their arms and they shake
Or when I smile and I feel their pulse race under me.
Its like a high that I can never get enough of.
Their eyes widen and they take in shallow breath like they
Want to breathe in the essence that is me
And I get a little close and look them in the eyes with
A playful smile and make them want something that
I would never let them have.
I love the way they love me and the looks in their eyes
And the skips in their heartbeats and the way they smile
Nervously when they see me come around a corner.
I love the way they want me in a way they’re never going
To have and I love giving them a taste and then pulling
Away to get another fix somewhere else.
Lying has gotten me places but loving is something
That I know I’ll never try until someday that somebody
Just like me comes into my life.