In complete exile from what you said is now my family
I hear the laughter from outside
I can see the smiles on all your faces
Yet I am here...
Holding back the tears
Holding in my screams
I am beyond alone within this world
Falling deeper within this hole … this black endless hole
As a child I knew nothing of a family
Simply the fact I wanted to be a part of one
Now as an adult the emptiness only remains
You tell me I am now a part of your family
However I kept behind a curtain no one is to look behind
I am left on the side-lines to look on …
Raging with anger I am!
Seeing RED I am!
Why lie to me?
Why have you put false facts into my mind?
You have gotten me to fall head over heels for you..
Whose heart has no more room for me?
You tell me you love you me
Expressing to me I am important to you
However I have yet to see actions that agree with these words you speak!
i could relate with you almost completely with this. reason i say almost is simply a sexist matter. not that i mean anything by it. i think a majority of people feel this way. so much loneliness inside and a cloud of untrust on the outside that lingers above your head.
truly, i wish you the best, and even more i wish you a different road than that which i follow.
best of luck to you