You'll have to move forward. You'll have to get out of bed and make do with what you have and just move forward. Because you can't make him love you. You can't make him feel how you feel or see what you see and so it is time to just get away from it. Get away from the guilt and the bad feelings and the fear. Move forward. And don't look back and don't call him and don't feel sorry. You have to know that you're pretty and you're fun and he will be sorry. He will miss you, he will wish he'd been different.