Ah I have found myself late night writing on this site time after time and I habe gotten to the point same as you, am I writing by myself, or is there someone, some kind of soul out there reading and relating to what I am going through, half the time or nearly 80 percent of the time you get nothing, no one around you and your silent enigma of loneliness just to see if well you are alright, then it becomes a trend staying up all night when every one but you is asleep and you are just pouring your heart out. Hoping for another day to get through and past the vicious cycle. Waiting, trying, hoping, and in your words fading. Well I thought I would come in on your late night and tell you that Im listening, reading, and writing, to keep yourself from fading. Please keep writing hope to hear from you soon.