Sitting next to your bedside
telling you I'll be okay
Holding your hand, hearing your breathing
but no response, your eyes gaze at the ceiling
I wonder if it is angels you see
ready to take you away
a week without your voice
but your lifeline still beating
I'd kiss your cheek, leave the room
Get in my car, and cry
Leaving you was so hard
every time. Saying goodbye
the last was the hardest.
Saturday morning, May 14
"She's gone" and my heart sank
My best friend, My mentor,
Gone from this world?
Forever, never to be heard?
Never to be seen?
Never to be hugged?
It's too much for me still
Months later, The loss
It burns a place deep inside of me
We all die, that's the truth
But now I feel so alone
I feel like no one cares
Because you did so much
I know no one could ever compare
I remember your voice last
" I love you baby, I don't want to leave you"
And I cry still because i know
You never wanted to leave
but you had to. They carried you away
The last time, I held your cold hand
and I looked at your tight lips and face
I could see your green eyes a little
but there was no light anymore
I did not feel you there at all
The loss sank in that moment
and my dad made me leave
"you have to let go sometime"
Grandma, I miss you every day
The woman that raised me,
Loved me, Gave me a home.
I know that no amount of time is ever enough.
People say it won't get better
it just gets different.
Why did I tell you I would be okay?
that i would work my best to make our family happy.
When all I do is fall to the ground
I can't get back on me feet again without you
Help me, Please help me up.
There is a hollow and lonely place in my heart now
I have to keep you alive in my memories
I have to keep you alive in my soul
The woman that made me and taugh me
She's somewhere better now.
I have to believe she's somewhere better.