What where you searching for? Honestly I want to know what I did wrong. What did I do for things to turn out the way they did? I did nothing but pour my heart and soul into saving you. How foolish was this dream now that I think about it. I should have seen that you really didnít want to be saved. But I never thought id actually loose you. As stupid as I may sound nothing could have prepared me for this heartache and nothing could ever repair it. How could you do this to me I gave you so much and yet you couldnít give me this one thing. All I asked is for you to have stayed alive, to bear with me and fight thru it. Was that really so much to ask for? Honestly was it! What hurts the most is that no one understands why Iím so damaged by it. They probably saw you as the disease you came to be, slowly creeping up with out warning causing my defenses to weaken. I couldnít fight you. As much as I tried to resist it, the damage was done and now Iím the one left undone.