update. (i know it has been a hvile, over 3 veeks no....)
my life turning further even downhill, all trying to be nice, depressed me even more,
that and the ordinary struggle to understand humans, and their range of emotions, and their instinct, I say that I am sad, they are also, I say I'm glad they react just weird, I still do not understand what to do in life, but only play with, maybe I once will get a reason,
still feel hollow and empty. without knowing what might fill the void.
am I by definition (except the physical? human??