I just wish I could Run,
Run far, far away.
I wish if I actually did this
I could truthfully say that Id never look back.
But I know I would.
I long to grab a hold of happiness whatever that may be.
Take what I rightfully deserve,
no no not material objects,
Instead of those made up memories with the fake parents I always longed to have.
Envision the birthday parties I never experienced as a child...
Be the Daddy's little girl I never got to be.
I wish to forever erase those memories of him walking into my room, touching me..
I want to take back those drug invested nights...
I hate being me, and the feelings I feel
I hate the way others look at me, and feel they have the right to poke fun at my slim frame because they do not have one.
Most of all..
I wish with everything I have that when I fall asleep in the morning I will not wake up!
I never want to see the sun.. EVER AGAIN
... But I will awaken and I will see my kryptonite buried deep beyond those clouds..
And for these feelings will eventually subside..
Until another night like this one...