I wish to take these emotions of
Hatred, Rage, Loneliness, Uselessness
Box them up throw a bow on it, put it in the mail box
Ship them to some godforsaken place
Where no one ever has to live this constant pain
or same old struggles and memories of drug addiction
Memories of the night I decided to take my life, but obviously couldn't even do that right
Now forever living with the scars from that gun which did not do its job!
Feelings of wanting nothing more than to be "Daddy's Little Girl"
or the wishful thinking I had for so long...
Hoping that by allowing my step dad to "show"
his love for me
in the way he did, that then I "Would"
.. I "Could"
be Daddy's Little Girl..
Ohh but how wrong was I?!
Instead I live with nightmares I cannot recall yet I wake others up from
I live with constant feelings of worthlessness
Never will a man love me for me..
No they will only love me for the sexual things that may happen between us..
I am nothing but a piece of trash
a piece of property..
Use me, Abuse me, Discard me..
And, when your tired of me throw me out
everyone else has