I'm lost within the haze of the "Brand New Me"...
Am I, the only one who can see a change?
Has my two year journey been fruitless?
No one bothers to notice my accomplishments or the obvious change
Yet, I bet they'd all notice me falling flat on my face...
I ask you,
What is wrong with me?
Why am I the only one who can see the lengthy strides I have made in my life?
Efforts that only came about due to personal strength and perseverance
I fell so many times at one point thatís all I thought I would ever do
But eventually I learned to walk all over again
And I did it on my own
I am no longer the drug addict I once was
And I am doing my best to move past the sexual abuse I experienced
What can I do, I beg you please do not kick me to this curb you will break all I have worked so hard for!
I have no one...
Not a family of my own
And it has become apparent, my own family wishes to disown me...
All my efforts, all this change I did for me... But also with hopes that you could love me
I could have a mommy...
I could have my big brother back..
And most of all I could be Daddy's little girl! With no sexual actions between us..
Yet again I am sadly mistaken...
I am off to walk these paths of my life alone