It is only when you totally surrender to the Lord can you experience this type of intimacy. Jesus said, "Love your God, with all your heart, with all your mind and with all your soul, this is the first and greatest commandment."
Am I to understand from this that you consider God to be a self-conscious entity? Why do you believe this? Being an agnostic I do not deny the existence of god, but I'm not really expecting an interactive experience.