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Waking from nightmares,
since such things
have happened
it has been so long.
Believing in fact
they were over and gone.
Now its not so ,
I wake afraid, confused
is it real, no, yet still,
my panic wont diffuse.

Screaming,
blood curdling screams
no one can hear.
Fighting off attackers
that are not real.
My mum cannot hear me,
just as in the past.
Noone can hear now,
I keep screaming
but nothing comes out.

Sounds in the house
as I sit alone.
Frightened to sleep
in my own home.
Exhausted my eyes
refuse to close.
I have to sleep,
yet it chills me to the bone.

Trying to figure
why the mares?
Perhaps lack of control
my life in the air.
Worried my daughter
will be alright.
I cannot sit up,
exhausted all night.

I take my phone
to place down
beside me.
More noises sound
everything is frightening.
Take a deep breath,
calm my mind.
Yet peace is not near
sleep I cannot find.

Needing to function
I pray for release,
hoping the nightmares,
for tonight will cease.
Knowing as I wake
in the morn,
the fears will arise
with the new dawn.

When can I rest?
I do not know,
I am struggling
always, to overthrow.
That which hounds me
day and night.
Positivity hard,
panic, anxiety,
my fearful plight.