For the first time in years
I can look in the mirror,
to finally face, myself and my fears.
Eyes now, clear and true,
look back at me,
no more red, only blue.
My choice of addiction
I finally say goodbye,
no more pain, no more affliction.
How free, I am now left feeling
finally my true self,
with my hurts, I'm finally dealing.
Thinking, thought my life was better
oh how deluded,
my mind now unfettered.
I would say, you stole so much
but I was the one giving in,
blame I see, only now as a crutch.
Free from misery, you offered me,
I realise not, rather
hell for years, financial slavery.
I let go of you, now and forever
I've untied the tether.
Making up for what is lost
I cannot do this,
too high was the cost.
Starting fresh, happy with now
doing better from here
not giving up, my mind or power.