My heart I've laid completely bare,
entrusted to your tender care,
nothing held back, nothing reserved,
insulation completely stripped.
I place myself into this state,
happily and thanking fate,
i trust to your love without hesitation,
your tender touch my elation,
Yet, a fear grows, in a dark corner,
seeking to devour, loves sweet flower,
no insulation left,
of protection I'm bereft.
I hear your words and feel your love,
but alas my dove,
this terrible fear,
does whisper in my ear.
Doubt creeps in,
these fears begin,
spreading like disease.
My confidence this fear shakes,
my heart in terror quakes,
worry makes me frail,
makes me pale.
I know not whence it comes,
like the buzzing of insects it hums,
in my mind ever present,
till my attention to it is lent.
A jealous worry?
Though unfounded, both these things,
give fear strength till painful it rings.
What if someday I lose,
whatever it was made you choose,
a wretch like me,
I feel so unworthy.
So many see your light,
and clamor for the right,
to call you theirs,
and with you spend the years,
What if one day another,
more deserving of your wonder,
makes a start,
and wins your heart?
Its not you I doubt,
but me, my worth,
I feel I fail you everyday,
why on earth would you stay?
A goddess like you deserves so much more,
the world's treasures laid at your door,
I strive to deliver, I give my all,
still in my eyes so short I fall.