I wonder where this life is going to lead me
or the future struggles I will soon encounter
I can only hope that my past endeavors have ran their course,
and I can truly move past them - what was, and look forward to - what will be
I hope to find a man who will love me, hold me, keep me safe, and wipe my tears from my cheeks
He can accept me and all this baggage I carry with me in this life
I am only doing the very best I can,
With what has been handed to me
I am no longer that tough little girl, who held it all in
who did not shed a single tear
My sadness only portrayed threw silent treatments and anger
So many people told me this was a defensive mechanism...
So often I have wished to be that girl again
However, I burned out the fuse for such a reoccurrence some time ago
Now I am forced to lead, life as the majority of us do...
To those who surround me,
Nothing to protect me any longer not even I can protect myself now...