Visions they dance across my thoughts in recreations.
Seems to me that they perform at a leisurely pace.
Almost like they are existing right in front of me.
Acted out by you together with me in another lifetime
Why do these memories have to be so difficult to realize?
I recognize what I see too, yet I cannot seem to let go.
I will not allow the yesterdays's to be free,
They so engulfs my visions, flooding my thoughts.
What could it be that imprisons me here with you?
Is it the dread that I will falter without you?
Or perhaps the worriment that he will no longer desire me.
I cant rationalize this out in my head I've tried.
Time and again it occurs the same I run back to you.
The one that I have been with for years.
However not the one that I truly desire as I once did.
Do I push away the love I create for him?
Just to remain secure in a life that I do not desire.
Someday these reflections will vanish to black.
I pray so, to end this play that I play so often.