If only you knew how far I have gone,
Every night I reflect, on images not there.
I have changed my situation,
And open to learn so much more,
I have found claritiy in my post agnostic world,
I have sought out the heavens to help.
I pray so I can end my anger to people arond me,
I still place so many in front of me.
I work beyond my expectations at work,
To go home to my nightmares alone.
I try so hard crying long nights,
And wait til the sleep settles in,
So i can do it all again in the morning.
I seek so much help from others,
Very few answer,
To those I am grateful,
Yet the disastor is still there..
I relive my anguish,
Only to find who I am once again,
Always caught in the mix,
I am void, I am empty...
And I am upset,
Because inside there is no control...