Im happy because there is a life out there that is mine.
I smile because I can feel it tingling,
calling me out towards the world.
Sometimes I feel like Im dying to burst, unable to hold on to this bleak present.
With melancholy I cuddle with this life knowing that it wont last.
I've said my goodbyes and
I've prepared this self for a sunnier future, one with silent bright tuesdays,
and orange evenings,
bold in color and passionate in textures.
I feel my future life hurdling towards my present one and the excitement of the collision wakes my every sense.
I smile because I know,
that the future of my self is near,
teasing and allowing glimpses
just enough to send another wave of knee- buckling arosal through me.
I smile not because I love today
but because I am in love
with the future days to come
I smile because I know