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I know I am ugly deep inside
I know I am only an object to those who surround me in this life
I know I am of very little value if any to these people.
I am the ultimate runt within the litter
I am the ugly duck and I acknowledge this
My problems stem back from childhood
Nightmares still haunt me
The pain still remains, permanently etched within my mind
Memories... only the tip of the iceberg
Depression eats at my core
My own personal fears haunt me
My past is at every turn
I am my own worst enemy...
I can see now how I will meet my end
At a young age,
Lying alone in a dark, chilly room
Lost the will to fight
Lost the endless battle of this deep seeded depression
Tired of all this pain
Tired of a world where I only encounter heartache and torment
Lying alone, at young age
I lose the willpower to live a life I was never meant to live...
Well life sucks. :) But you can make it better. Depression is just a vicious circle. You somehow have to find a way to break it. It's not that hard as it seems when you're caught in it. Sometimes is just a matter of finding something you enjoy and doing it for a long period of time. I can also tell you something that has helped me a lot: vitamin B complex. They are the only vitamins that regulate the functioning of the brain. They can help a lot with depression as they fortify you mentally so it's easier to find solutions as you simply have more mental strength. Give them a try, after one week you should start to feel a bit better...
I understand that what your saying everyone is going to say is untrue (which probably is) I understand exactly how you feel. I don't think it makes it any better that the world is so merely based on beauty nowadays to get noticed. Back then the chubby and ugly people were pretty, what happened? I believe everyone has flaws, but that's what makes them unique and different. Nothing wrong with being different. I really do like this because it speaks what so many people are feeling. It's natural to feel ugly, we all do. But should we base our beauty on what others think? I Just sit here and hope you don't fall too deep in a hole that you can't get out of :/