Numb.
I am feeling numb again.
I feel nothing.
No emotion.
All I want to do is sleep.
I don't care about anything.
Food.
School.
Friends.
Books.
Art.
Nothing.
A hollow vessel with no will.
Broken with no hope.
Acting as usual but caring so little.
Apathy.
Nothingness.
A blank mind and a blank face.
No emotion.
Cold as stone.
No movement.
A statute frozen in time.
The last time I was numb i looked for an outside source to bring me to feel.
Want to know my secret?
Want to know what brought me out of the numbness?
Are you sure?
Do you really want to know?
Do you want the gruesome details?
Are you sure you can handle it?
Your this far, I'll tell you.
On one condition.
DON'T EVER THINK OF ME AS A SUICIDAL FREAK!
My Secret?
A razor blade and crying blood.
It made me feel pain.
Pain is better than nothing!
You still feel!
Just Differently!
It's a relief,
Because you know that you are alive,
but in a tormented state.
It's a regret,
because it doesn't last long,
and the numbing torment soon returns.
A fleeting emotions really.
It's gone as soon as it comes.
The brain sends out chemicals to stop the pain.
A brief moment in time,
suspended in a bliss,
released by more chemicals to feel happy.
Drugs have the same effect!
Cutting is cheaper.
Same dangers.
More noticeable,
More concealable.
I am not a freak, monster, or demon.
Just a person who needed help,
And no one would give it!1111
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Submission Name: My Secret
