Only a few words pass between us.
yet my heart flutters and my lips smile.
My mind tells my heart to shush.
but my heart cannot estrange
from the give and take trial
of incessant self-removal.
I want to be closer.
Why do I keep backing away?
I would kill for your approval,
but with you I only lose composure.
I'm begging you to stay.
Surface emotions. Promising, to say the least. The reason you are backing away is purely due to the fact that you know what will come, you are familiar with the experience of a relationship, and your prior failed efforts. If the world was more romantic, perhaps you could have it your way, but it is not.
So speak up. And become closer with what you are writing about.
Before it is too late.
I appreciate your writing, but it is only so telling, so honest. Elaborate. Give us the rest of the story.