I have always found it quite ridiculous when people used to tell me that some day I will find myself and know who I am as a person. It made no sense to me; "find myself? I am right here, I know who I am". Now that I look back on it, I have never really known who I really am. My life is composed of many phases, each wildly different from eachother. It is incoherent and makes no sense, but I suppose thats the building blocks towards who "I really am". I take pieces from each phase and use it to my advantage. However, will these phases ever stop? Will I ever get to a point where it is just "me"? It freaks me out that I might "not be who I am"., but then again whose to say who I really am besides me. Now that I think about it, it seems useless to try to figure out who I am. I think the goal of my individuality is to strive to be the person I want to be (and striving sounds less painful than searching). When you strive, there is an end goal in mind, it might constantly be changing, but you see it. If you "search for who you are" its like the equilvalent of planting you in the Saharah Desert with a shovel and telling you to go find "it". Yeah, exactly.