Iím tired of the constant battle within, feelings of dread and misery, non ending self loathing the constant moving back and forth between happiness and sadness, stress, fear anxiety and panic attacks
I work within a call centre probably not the best Career choice having to deal with people over the phone. People who donít understand
No one understands how bad this is, it never goes away itís always there, I hate it!
And thatís just the emotional part of it. It affects the way I talk to people, if I am in a pub and there is loud music play and everyone shouting I fail to understand them. I canít understand there body language
Moment can also be an issue walking down stairs, walking on ice on a cold day, getting on and off buses or trains.
Reading writing donít read books as I donít get any joy out of them
I have trouble sleeping which can leave to migraine attacks
Iím not allowed to be sad or in pain or sad,
In the end there worse people off than me, I was only born this way.