its interesting how in this case there are plenty of things you never did or said...
somethings are better left alone... you know?
if this is written from personal experience i am sorry. no one deserves to be used by another human being in any way. ever.
especially not when it comes to money.
though money will make many people do things that they ought not be proud of.
but it sounds to me like theyve done good by you in the end. it sounds to me like you never noticed things to be the way they were until it was well over.
and because you hadnt recognized the situation for what it was you were unable to see the person for who they were...
having doors slammed in your face hurts but once you are able to step back from said door and look around you can see the whole wall and not just the door. the wall covered in broken glass and barbed wire to keep you out; that serves as a warning that you are not welcome..
sometimes we just dont want to see any of this.
sometimes we WANT love to be blind.
but yes. youre right. it was the best possible outcome given the cards played.
'apart of' ??
I wish you could have let this out without the anger. Inspite of the acceptance on the first lines of stanzas, the last line points a finger. It seems the struggle has not died. I like the way you write. I've got something similar; read 'Today I finally did it' when you get a min.