When the world falls around you,
And the lights are shut off in your life..
There seems to be learned helplessness,
That is so severe, it threatens mortality.
Emotions so systemic,
A dream that is so hard to be attained..
The threat of loss...
The dealings with loss...
The carelessness, and apathy,
The tensions that eat at me alive,
To awake in this broken cold home,
And know that no one is there...
Today I lost my car,
I lost my job,
I lost my home...
I have never felt so alone...
No hand to hold onto,
No happy ending..
No one by my side...
This suffering has to end.
I don't want to be here anymore,
I do not desire to keep fighting for failure,
I desire to be burried,
I desire to end myself...
The essence of my weak life