I look to you in confusion,
your words of another language.
I shake away the illusion,
Stare back down at the pavement.
But your steady hands grasp my attention,
your firm lips, mouth "are you listening?"
Your cold dead eyes pierce through mine.
My heart refuses to believe it.
How could something so good, devine,
be something also worth losing?
Emotionless, you keep repeating..
"I can do this no longer."
My willing heart defeated,
wonders if its karma.
Wanting desperately to change,
your all I've ever wanted.
But my actions refused to blame
the words I continuosly showed them.
Happiness I thought, could never be found.
The realization, heaven abound.
You taught me this thing called love,
was patient in your teaching.
But I a dyslexic fuck,
only knew one way to show the meaning.
I could tell you a million times
of the love that bursts within.
But the pain spread inside
succumbs my whole being.
You burned a hole within my soul,
I felt the infection submissing.
Like a cancer playing its stubborn role,
it returned with a beating.
Once again I lyed there lifeless.
Giving up on fighting.
But your glimmer of hope,
Gave me reason to cope
and believe in the madness.
Finally my weary eyes were open.
My heart beating in gladness.
The deep harnassing hate beaten,
away with the sadness.
A slight smile crossed my face.
Proud of what Ive become.
The look of your eyes in play,
completely convinced youre the one.
But it took to much time, the healing.
Too much hate had already become.
So you stand beside me, repeating..
"You took away my sun."
You shined your light upon me,
till it was done.
Took away all my misery,
till there was none.
Placed me within your arms
and warmed me
of all the cold I had succumbed.
But now you stand here free,
of what Ive become...
Just when I was ready to be the part,
I literally took your heart.