Lonely for so long.
So many times I’ve been used.
Every decision I’ve made is wrong.
So many times I’ve been confused.
And then here you are.
You smile and I’m breathless.
Searching for your face in every passing car.
I’m stupid and anxious.
It’s been so long since I’ve had a crush.
You’ve got me head over heels.
I talk about you and I can’t help but to gush.
These feelings, my face reveals.
I want long talks, cuddles and laughter.
And it all starts as conversation.
You’re the one I’m after.
I can’t help this fixation.
I want to talk yet I can’t seem to speak.
So I’ll spill my heart out onto a page.
I want to see you every day of the week.
I hope you don’t mind my age.
It’s as bittersweet as it gets.
The younger girl, the older guy.
But I’m alone with my cigarettes.
And I’m dreading every goodbye.
I over think and it sours my mood.
Making every night a sleepless one.
It’ll never happen is what I conclude.
So I won’t sleep until I see the sun.