I want to climb up the backs of every person that I have ever been, digging my claws into
the boulders of their shoulders and make them bleed for every scar that has accumulated on the skin that I have now.
I want to place bullets between their teeth and tell them to bite down, until the words etched into the metal are engraved on their bones and they feel as ugly as I think I am.
Instead I hold on to things that I cannot ever truly touch, because these memories are pieces that I cannot put together. The wires got crossed somewhere, and I need someone to love me as hard as I hate myself so that I know that I'm not supposed to feel this way.