This is the face of failure,
one marked by the pains of regret.
Fear has become a comforting friend,
guiding me deeper into the valley of my pain.
I trusted him completely.
I gave myself to him,
and he caressed my deepest truths.
I gave in to my lack of self worth.
I gave myself away...
I am the shame, the bundle of the worst parts of me.
But I did not need his command, his blessing
to find freedom.
All this time thinking that Mighty Fear was my god, my beacon, my voice of reason.
All this time believing that I needed his release
"How small I was!"
These words float through my head...
But regret cannot help mend a broken life,
the burning shame cannot smooth the pain.
I was not seduced...
there was willingness in my attempt.
This is my ultimate truth,
My greatest shame on fire.
I believed him when he said he was my solution,
my only escape.