The darkness engulfs my already blackened heart
For you have created yet another stain on this already bleak existence of mine.
I showed you compassion
I showed you love
I gave you friendship
My heart was forever yours and look where I ended up..
Alone within this hole that only seems to grow with each passing moment without you...
Yet you lie in the arms of another woman
However, you took my hand in marriage?
Baby, my heart is broken beyond repair
Denial was the first step, for I knew we had our issues yet never thought you would be so cruel
Betrayal doesn't even come close to expressing the pain, the complete and total devastation I'm experiencing
Now it's hating you and hating myself for ever loving you that gets me through my days.
Hating myself for allowing myself to be vulnerable with you
And wanting absolutely nothing more than to rewrite my past without you!!!
For the pain and agony you have caused me is just too overwhelming...
However, this is simply not possible
So for now I remain, engulfed within my darkness
Wrapped up within this deep-seeded depression...