Urges pulsing where control is messy
Get up and get out, show me where you escape.
This is going to erupt,
We’ve taken this too far.
You’re pushing me over and this time
I’m digging in and shoving back.
No winners here, this time.
All I want to do is
Feel my hand connect with
Skin and listen to those words
That throw me off the edge.
Anger is my heartbeat
Jagged and raw.
Eyes against yours that
Molest your thoughts and
Help you remember that somewhere
I’m always buried in your thoughts.
But you’re quiet.
It’s confusing and makes me need
To dig my nails against the
Sides of my wrists
And wonder if this is how
Manipulation gets in the fast lane.
Teeth sink into the sides of my cheek
And I can taste that sly smile
That lets me know you’ve won
Before I even got to start this time.
You got me to break, and my worst
Confession is that I’d never
Really hurt you again.
I’ve waited and anticipated
Each drawn out scene playing out
And none of them end well for me.