Jackie, I know exactly how this feels. I have dealt with the hurt and betrayal of another woman for far too long myself. Ever the constant glimmer of hope that rears its head just as I'm about to give up and to give in. 22 years of I don't know what to call us anymore. Knowing I'm pathetic because I keep hoping if I hold on a little longer we will get better.
It's hard loving anyone!! Knowing that you're giving them the power of life and death over your heart and soul!! Just to have them either walk out on the promises, on you or just continually show you how very far from enough you are..
You are BEAUTIFUL, and you have so much to offer!! I'm always here, no judgements, no agenda just someone to be there if you need me.
A close friend of mine has always told me that nothing lasts forever. Love, it would seem, is cast into the proverbial bucket with everything else. However, I have chosen to believe that there are somethings that do last forever. Love happens to be one of those things. You see, for me, I just can't easily disguard love...even for all of its imperfections. And despite all of the hurt that it has brought me...it has also brought me 100 times more good memories.
I don't know if this poem is a reflection of your life or not, but if it is...you will find happiness, love is forever, and don't be afraid fall in love again! If this poem has nothing to do with your life...well then, thank you for the reminder that love is worth the risk despite its shortcomings...and please excuse my ramblings ;)