I ache to fade away
Into the background of this crowd
For which I go unseen for the most part anyhow
I wish for an invisible cloak in which will grant me my deepest desire
For all I am is an unwanted, unloved, empty shell of a person.
A hollow person
Thriving, breathing, living in darkness of pure and utter hate
Hate for herself and those whom have wronged her in ways no will ever comprehend
Left behind in the aftermath of my dysfunctional childhood
I, and only I reap from the disadvantages of my solid life
Left with night terrors only the devil himself can concoct
This inferno of hatred only grows
This great distain I carry with me daily, get heavier
The shame I feel for the abuse I endured deepens with every passing moment
Full of hatred I am.
I ache to just fade away in the background of this empty life I lead....