First let me say this was extremely well done for being so pure of heart and hurt. There are no excuses or justification for the theft of ones innocents. Forgetting is not an option. Time is only a thick layered scar upon the wound. Which at any given moment can be as raw and in the now as when it was first inflicted.
There is no pity here...just understanding. I have my on anger, my own flashing reels and after 35 years it still plays a huge part of who I am. All these years later I actually have come to use it on days when I need to stand tall.
We're survivors and for that we must live life to the fullest.
Very tough subject, but i think you nailed it. I know venting through ES may not seem like a great source of relief but i think this write truly shows your feelings perfectly. I have an ex gf who im still great friends with today and she went through the same thing. I know we cant change the past, but we can always change the future. And everythinf, with enough time, will become better. Hopefully you come to terms with this one day and just remember to stay positive and turn your sadness into joy becauase you can always leave your past behind, and build a new future with your daughter and family.
Great write and hope things work out for you.
Once again great job on such a touch subject.