I've come back to this one (and indeed several others that you've posted) again and again and none of my readings help me to any firm understanding of what it's about--although it has something that draws me back time and again.
the phrasings that give me some difficulty in gleaning the meanings of, are:
ken flounders for acceptance I am reading 'ken' as knowledge so that makes some sense....until I get to the next line:
'fears to rise of no return' and from there on I am lost, especially by the surprising last line.
Overall it has a lovely rollicking rhythm and is so nice to read.
I see you have it listed as a journal entry to possibly lead to something else so I'd be interested to see what that could be. :)