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Not Enough Hours

Author: Ontlogicalamity
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Not Enough Hours

The phrase, "there aren't enough hours in the day," has never wrung so true.
Is "wrung" a word? I could look it up, but what's the point? There isn't time.

It's odd. My wife is home with our newborn, and I travel for work.
Yet even during the week when the site gets closed and I'm left in the hotel to my own devices,
I get less sleep than she does.

I've always felt the need to create--to be original, but my work has become increasingly droll.
In the last year I've gone from writing documents based on older documents,
To merely reviewing older documents and filling out forms.
Where am I to go for a creative outlet?
Designing fictional spaceships.
Role playing online.
Writing letters.
Just writing.
You'd think
would be somewhere
on that list! Yet I shun sleep.
And instead spend my evenings typing away,
musing on how it seems that there simply isn't enough time
to build the things I want to build, or write the things I want to write,
because I'm too busy formulating self-indulgent prose and forcing it to look roughly parabolic.

But none of this is what I really want, it's just what I'm good at.
What I really want is to create something of value. Something useful.

To build, not just a tower, but a windmill!

To write, not just a story, but a procedure!

To design, not just toys, but tools!

To succeed at such endeavors, I'll have to step outside my comfort zone.
Perhaps that's why I tackle so many trivial projects--to distract me from the difficult path.
Can I be content with dull work if I have other creative outlets?
Perhaps for a time... but I don't think it will last;
Insomniacs tend to burn out.

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  I like your writing. I especially enjoyed the beginning of it, I thought it was clever. I actually looked it up in the dictionary myself lol
I have always felt the need to write and to have time for myself, to do things I really want to do to write a book, a short story or just lost myself in words …. but there isn't any time for such endevours.
I often wonder what it would be like to do Chris McCandless did- The lad whose life was portrayed in the book "into the wild.” It might sound cheesy but nature tends to make things a little better sometimes.

I have also wondered what it would have been like had I been given different chances. Would I have been able to be a writer, had I been given the right opportunities, I often ask myself. Would things have been different, had I been born somewhere else. I'm tortured by "what ifs", I surmise, though I try to put them aside and just to enjoy what I have. I mean I have to I have no choice …
I recently read that to be successful one has to forget about the past and the future and concentrate only in the present which is what really matters. This might not be very useful for your current dilemma though....

What I can say is that what you have just written here is something of value. I recently read a paper which contains the following quote which I like

” Any human act that gives rise to something new is referred to as a creative act, regardless of whether what is created is a physical object or some mental or emotional construct that lives within the person who created it and known only to him”

It looks as though what you wrote – believe it or not - was a creative act after all …

and besides

of us
is a letter
stuck in the hands
of an inexperienced writer.

I don't know why these lines came to mind and somehow they made sense...

Hope you find what you are looking for.

Ethan Brody
| Posted on 2014-12-15 00:00:00 | by Ethan Brody | [ Reply to This ]

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