When I was 17, I saw something that I thought was the most incredible thing ever.
It was the return of John Frusciante as a member of the Red Hot Chili Peppers.
Scar Tissue. I have some now.
In the video for Scar Tissue, Frusciante was playing a guitar with a broken neck and no strings.
He even used a slide on it.
When I saw that, being 17, directionless, confused, and just having no idea how to live, it seemed to capture my emotional state.
I felt like I was playing the same guitar but looked less cooler than Frusciante in the video.
I thought music and musicians had the answers. So I went about doing what I thought they would be doing to the best of my abilities and I thought I would find happiness.
I was wrong. Many artists are the most tortured of us all.
Some can take that pain and moves us beyond belief by inspiring us, by showing us that they have found light in all the darkness. And other artists spread their negativity, pain, and bitterness and tell you that's the way it is. It isn't.
Life is beautiful. And artists that capture the beauty of life are the ones whose works you could use as tools to find your own path and your own answer or answers.
But it wasn't cool to like artists with positive messages when I was 17.
You had to like the negative suicidal junkies who failed at everything and created bitter angry intellectual property that got sold as the next cool hip angry edgy thing.
What do we have? A generation of people who perpetuate a cycle of misery.
I've never had a dad. I did, but didn't. And statistically that is the cause of boys failing at life.
But I take responsibility for my actions now. Blaming him, her, art, whatever isn't going to solve any problems. Understanding that I control my life - that's a solution.
I think I've got a second chance now. And I get a bit teary eyed because I look back at that 17 year old kid playing that broken guitar in his mind - and I wish I could help him and not have him go through all the pain and misery he ended up going through. I wish I knew then what I know now . . . how many people have said that? Too many, yet we fail to hear them.
And sometimes I get teary eyed because I feel amazing that I managed to break through the darkness.
Things are far for perfect. My life needs a lot of work.
But now, I can honestly say, I feel . . . good . . . a lot of the times . . . but most importantly, I feel excited about living life
That's it. This is not really a work. I was listening to one of those internet radio stations (which shall not be named because it might be considered advertisement) and Scar Tissue came on. And I had to write . . . something. I don't consider myself a writer. I think of myself as a dabbler.
But many of you consider yourselves writers. Write about things that inspire us to greatness. If you look for beauty and positivity in your situation you will find it.
Scientifically, the very act of observing something changes the characteristic of what you observe.
You want to observe light as a particle? It will behave like a particle.
You want to observe light as a waveform? It will behave like a waveform.
Look for beauty, magic, and positivity in life? You will find them.