Deeper than language -------------------------------------------
I want to go deeper than language
I want to stop wanting
Let me go, thoughts, and leave me be
For you are like fleas biting at me
Jumping past my ears
I keep leaping on your back
Riding you to the land of fear
Trying desperately to tame and rein you in.
It is the laugh of insanity.
Why do I persistently mount you,
And let you decide my path?
I should stay off you
And be walked back to Truth.
For you never take me there.
I know this!
Expecting otherwise is futile
And yet I still do!
I need to ignore your itching!
I have turned a blind eye to truth
And eaten lies
And believed myself sick
And I have been blinded by the face of light
And spewed forth truths
That have reminded me I am whole and well.
Words are just sounds
I have given meaning to.
They just get in the way of YOU.
Strip me bare
And still my tongue
And speak to me with YOUR silent voice.
YOU have laid the ground
Of the path Home.
I need but to stay on it
And follow it there.
I am walking the path
And yet I know there is nowhere to walk to.
For I am already there.
I like how you have pinpointed the problem you are expressing.
Words are just sounds I have given meaning to
Another good line I enjoyed.
This is indeed a battle.
Its amazing how such little that we consume that is not truth can completely consume us until it seems we are sick. It makes me feel so disappointed and far from faith. I can identify with this. I really liked the style that was used to express your trials.