Humans are meant to take care of themselves and help others do so as well. No one's going to save you, this is why we build strength and character.
If you have a mind, might as well apply it to your soul.
As far as the piece goes, it's something everyone's endured, if not still enduring. I, myself, had the same dilemma up till I realized that I am the only one who's going to be concerned.
Find something you like and become it. Then, you will feel the will to find the bigger picture, rather than trying to paint over it.
You have a good that others can relate to. Your inner dialogue resonating with the thoughts of others. It's hard to comment on something so personal but I applaud the point you are making here. There is nothing wrong with being ones own caretaker.