I've been in the place you were when you were writing this. And it is hard to put the feelings into words. Sometimes you try, but no phrase seems to encompass how your heart is aching...your confusion...your loneliness. This is a good start, but I know you're hurting more than this can express. In terms of a poem about a broken heart, this is kind of a lukewarm effort. Keep writing. The words will come easier, they will flow together to form the right feelings, and you will be more able to express everything.