Description: 10 years ago I was deployed in support of OIF. A lot happened over the course of a year, nothing expected. Life works itself out, though. I always felt like I had something to write about back then, now, its a little different.
(work in progress, I've not really been an active contributor for quite some time...)
I am not. -------------------------------------------
We've each our reasons
for decisions made
A world apart, even.
How clear was I?
A fool's effort made
in the midst of my own mistake.
As for you...I'll let you alone.
The entirety of my life
having served its purpose
in what would amount
to an eclipse of a decade.
Living in a memory / unable to explain/ how liquid years solidify/ like pinpricks in younger brains/ and yet I dance between the thoughts/ that are, yet shouldn't be/ like ancient glaciers full of weight/ unmelted on the sea...
Yes, indeed, a few things have changed here over the years. Since you have changed too, it is a revolving wheel. I have never served in the military, but I cannot imagine too many things with the potential to change a person more abruptly or completely. It sounds like you are adapting though, which is good and should show you a piece of the strength of your character.
We all do things and then look back and wonder if it was for the best. Our reasoning in any given moment sort of just is, and then we have to move on within whatever unfolds... one of life's more challenging aspects.
As for the poem, I agree with Pietro. There is a music to this; a melody that most probably reflected an inner flow. Changes in life have a tendency to upset creativity, maybe like a shaker containing grains of different sizes. It might not come out the same because it's settled different, but it's all there and in a new configuration.
No matter what conclusions you have come to since deciding to serve, I have no doubt you did so in search of a greater good both for humanity and for yourself. Thank you for being one of our braver souls.
There's a rhythm in this. I can definitely hear it, in both spoken and read. Like it has it's own internal meter. It hits the spot for me? I mean it strikes a balance, where all the notes do not overpower each other or something.
The simplicity and depth that all your words have here is such a treat to read.
Thanks for posting this. I truly enjoyed reading your piece for the third time now.