A constant reminder of what was dysfunctional
Now absent family I was apart of
Only a scapegoat to my Mother
A means to an end to my Step-Father
And a misunderstood little sister to my older brother
My heart forever jaded
For my entire childhood was taken hostage,
Never to be set free
Ultimately becoming the black sheep of the family
Played as the chess piece I represented to my Mother
Just another little girl to pleasure himself, my step-father.
Just a little girl longing for love and willing to accept it in any form...
Now an adult -
Aching to get back that childhood and nonexistent memories
Pleading with whatever is out there to take this darkness
The emptiness that never seems to leave...